For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known. .. whatsoever ye have spoken in darkness shall be heard in the light; and that which ye have spoken in the ear in closets shall be proclaimed upon the housetops. — Jesus of Nazareth, Luke 2:2-3 (For all of the Matthew Winklers and Mary Winklers reading here, who stand in need either of comfort or warning. — Heart)
These are the shoes Mary Winkler’s man-of-the-cloth husband, the good Rev. Matthew Winkler, wanted worn when he raped her, along with a short skirt, a tight shirt, and a black wig. Before he raped her, he got in the mood by watching pornographic movies, which he sometimes forced her to watch. These have been entered into evidence in her murder trial.
Over the course of her marriage, Matthew Winkler punched Mary in the face, pinched her, shoved her and beat her and the children with a belt. This, of course, in addition to raping her. A police officer called to testify desribed Matthew Winkler as a “Tasmanian devil.” Mary Winkler’s sisters have said Mary had to ask Matthew whether she could visit the family, and usually the answer was no. Mary describes her family as traditionally conservative Christian, Matthew large and in charge. Asked why she never told anyone, she said, “I was ashamed.” Asked why she didn’t divorce him, she said he refused to consider divorce and would have sought custody of the children (and probably would have gotten it).
Mary Winkler, I am standing with you. I support you. I feel you. No woman should ever have to live what you lived, suffer what you suffered, endure the kinds of torments you endured over years and years, silently, without complaint. I am so, so sorry. You didn’t deserve that, not any of it.
Anybody want to be forced into those shoes to have something your abusive husband calls “sex,” which amounts to rape, which he, and people in your world, are telling you is “sex” and “marital intimacy” which God requires of you as a Christian woman? Anybody know what it is for a woman to be tortured, tormented, methodically, deliberately, in this calculated way, by someone who says he “loves” you? Anybody know what it is to break, to find yourself unable to live this way anymore, unable to do it anymore?
I know exactly what it is. Many women, especially Christian or formerly Christian women, know what this is.
Here is one thing I have to say to all reading. Matthew Winkler didn’t develop a taste for forcing his wife into the torture devices depicted above and then raping her on his own, without help. That obsession began with pornography, with Matthew Winkler whacking off to images of other women forced into shoes like that, clothes like that, positions like that, to be fucked, and raped and used by men. Those of you who would say there is something “liberating” and “empowering” about wearing shoes like this for the entertainment of men, those who would say that women “choose” to wear this shit, may kiss my entire ass. Those of you who insist that pornography is just “fantasy” and “harmless” may go straight to hell. Those of us who, like Mary Winkler, have been directly harmed by it and by the views of people like you know better.
I am lighting a candle for Mary Winkler, her daughters, her sisters and father and mother, her friends, and the jurors who will decide her fate. I’m with you, Mary. If I could be there in that courtroom, I’d be right there with you.