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Pornography, Prostitution, Rape and Sexual Assault

Rebecca at Spinning Spinsters

One night, I stay behind in the club, waiting to go home with the DJ. I wanted him. He had a reputation of hating women. I knew that he was the sort of man that I deserved.I thought I know how he would treat me. Oh, I was so naïve.

I can see it now. Now I see a teenager attempting to make sense of her world. She tries so hard.

I see her whenever I see “street-wise” kids out looking defiant. I can see their fear. I can feel their emptiness. As I see them now, now I can cry.

Then, I could not allow myself to think. I could not feel. All I knew to do was to keep moving.

I allowed him to take me to his flat. He never looked at me. After all, I was a whore. So far, so normal.

In his room, I was fascinated by all his posters. Pictures of women crawling to the camera on their hands and knees. Some were dragged along with chains, some in cages. I thought that I understood.

When he fucked me, it was so hard, so quick. I could hear somewhere that I was screaming. Only, I never made any noise. I could never show that much fear.

But he was hitting me, telling to stop screaming. He threw out of his flat. I had no time to think if I was in pain.

Only, I found that I could not stop bleeding. I just ignored it.

The bleeding went on for days. The pain would not fade. I could hardly walk. I fainted going down the stairs.

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3 thoughts on “Rebecca at Spinning Spinsters

  1. Thank-you so much for promoting my piece on your blog. I feel greatly honoured. Yours with love and respect, Rebecca

    Posted by Rebecca | January 8, 2008, 2:50 pm
  2. The link doesn’t seem to be working, Heart – unless it’s just my computer.

    Rebecca’s writing is amazing. x

    Posted by Debs | January 8, 2008, 3:02 pm
  3. Thanks, Debs, and fixed. Rebecca, thank you for your fine work. You are one courageous amazon and you inspire all of us so much!


    Posted by womensspace | January 8, 2008, 3:07 pm

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